Friday, March 16, 2012
I Wasn't Born to Be Fat
In my book I write about how I thought for a very long time, most of my life, it was my genetics that determined why I was going to be fat, or "battle" with my weight forever, until the day I died. It seemed as if I was fat the day I was born because I can't remember anything different. My weight was something that was not my fault and I couldn't help. There was nothing I could do to change it....or change it for long. Of course I did lose weight numerous times, and yes I did gain it back. But I don't believe that it was the "dieting" that set me up to gain the weight back, it was my own habits of overeating that made me gain it back. Overeating, combined with the wrong foods, mostly convenient and processed foods, were in fact to blame.
I also remember overeating as a child. I knew I ate more than my sisters or my friends, maybe even my parents, but I didn't know why, or think it was strange, I was just hungry! Or so I thought. As a young child I was not aware, consciously of my own emotional health, and I'm not going to go back over it as an adult now. I can simply look back and yes, acknowledge that, in fact, I did overeat....for whatever reasons.
Imagine my surprise when I finally realized this was not my fate! And it wasn't that long ago! Even after I lost 120lbs I was unsure.... But everyday I kept feeling better and better, looking better and better, until finally I was convinced! I wasn't born to be fat! What a relief! Not only was I not born to be fat, but I was given a second chance to be the athletic and fit person I always admired and wanted to be.
I'm not suffering in any way. I do not feel like I'm sacrificing anything, especially food. I'm not starving and I'm not restricting. I don't overeat the way I used to, not even close, and I don't miss it at all. What I would miss is the way I look and feel now, and I'm not going to be giving this up! I wasn't born to be fat and I will not die fat.
I don't want to make it sound like being fat is the worst thing in the world, far from it, I'm only suggesting that it's not a life sentence. It's not a sentence at all. Just something that some of us experience.