Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Good Thing I Believe in Goodness and Miracles

I was really hoping to post some amazing videos of my Kettlebell Sport practice this afternoon. I mean, my snatch sets are fine, kinda good, but my jerk skill has yet to breakthrough.  Really, I have a positive attitude about it.  I never start my training/practice thinking I can't or won't do it.  I always go into the gym completely ready for goodness, and sometimes miracles, to take place....I believe in goodness and miracles, if you don't know that about me by the way.  I also believe in earning things in life, that nothing you hold of value is given to you by accident, without some kind of previous asking and preparations....not sure if I'm expressing that exactly right....  Sure, maybe we think some people are born not having to "worry" about money, looks, or status, and in some cases strength and athletic skill, but that doesn't mean that those people may not have any worries about other things in their lives!  And more power to them if they don't!  I want to be one of those people and in fact I feel more and more confident I am becoming one! 

I believe that anything is possible because if "one person can do it, then it can be done".  I live with this philosophy.

Long story short.  My 16kg jerk sets were an epic fail.  So much so that after my first set (of two) I actually broke down and sobbed uncontrollably on Marks shoulder.  I sobbed for about 2 minutes.  (aren't I lucky to have his shoulder there for me....geez, I'm so lucky)  I could have just wrapped it up, or tried the next set with a lighter bell, but instead I tried to pick myself up by my bootstraps and attempt a second set.  I started out as fresh as I could shake off what just happened but then as much as I wanted to gut through it, my forearm was bruised, and I just could not take the pressure the weight of the bell was creating....I tried really hard to hang on but combined with everything else it was too much.....today. 

I just really do not understand how I can be so weak or so stupid when it comes to this skill.  I was feeling at my lowest point ever.

But that was then (a couple of hours ago), and this is now.  I'll get back in the gym tomorrow and try again.  I will get this done.  It's not impossible, in fact it's very possible.  It's not like it's one thousand pounds for God's sake....well, technically it is.  36lbs x 100 reps = 3600 lbs = almost two tons....good thing I believe in miracles!

photo above was a still image I took from the video of my first set, trying to pull my head out of my "&$$", before a major meltdown that included 2 minutes of actual sobbing.  Aren't I 50 years old?  Way too old to be sobbing over a missed set.  Tomorrow I will try again, and regardless of the outcome I will probably post video.....no sobbing, promise.

10 comments:

juicyjen said...

Tracy, you are incredible. Tears were just a quick cleansing. :) If anyone can do it, you sure can! If everything was easy, it wouldn't feel so damn good when we have great accomplishments. Thanks for inspiring me daily!

Kim Drapic said...

Just because the water isn't boiling yet does not mean things are not quietly progressing underneath. I have no doubt you will succeed. Fact: I still cry at 57. Hugs!

Hanelle said...

You are working so very hard for it, so you WILL get it! Doesn't matter when. Tears are good, and you certainly are lucky to have a loving and supportive shoulder to cry on. Let it all out, to make room for the awesomeness that is still to come.

Tracy Reifkind said...

jjen,

words of wisdom, "tears are a quick cleansing", I like that, thank you.

And you know what? Yep, you are right, when I do in fact do this it will feel pretty darn good!

Tracy Reifkind said...

Kim,

I love the boiling water analogy, I may have to steal it from you!

I was not expecting a breakdown, it took me by surprise. Usually I get pissed, so maybe it's just taken me 50 years to soften up, and that's not a bad thing :)

Thank you.

Tracy Reifkind said...

Hanelle,

You are right. I especially like what you said about "making room", I totally believe in that!

You guys are awesome! Thanks!

Mark Reifkind said...

my love,

when we scale the heights there are always obstacles and roadblocks. It's not encountering those that define us but how we learn to go around and over them.
You did great;I love you and am always proud of you.

Diana said...

Tracy-
Be OK with not being OK all the time. Bad things happen everyday and to everyone at some point. The difference is in how people deal with it. Be patient and tough, someday this pain will be useful to you. Those with the strength to succeed in the long run are the ones who lay a firm foundation of growth with the bricks that life has thrown at them. Don't be afraid to fall apart and cry for a while, because when it happens, the situation will open an opportunity for you to grow and rebuild yourself into the brilliant person you are capable of being!

Morgan L. said...

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.” -- Arnold Schwarzenegger

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