Friday, July 27, 2012
Go For the GOLD!
Who wants to walk into a gym 100 + pounds overweight? My husband and I owned a gym for 8 years (World Gym, Campbell CA ), and I when I was overweight I never walked in the front door! Embarrassed for myself, but also too embarrassed for him to have such a fat wife. How would my life change, permanently, to that of an athlete in training, and feeling driven to be the best.
Remembering the Olympic Games came one of the biggest athletic memories of my life....along with thousands of other young girls! 1972, Olga Korbut. What little girl doesn’t dream of being the Women’s Gymnastic gold medalist? The Olympic games, only the best, the top of the top. The event, Gymnastics, was only an example that reminds us of what lies underneath, and inside of us…..our inner athlete.
At only 9 years old this left an impression of the physical possiblities, the physical potential available to all normal girls, but I wasn't normal. Being overweight, “chubby”, my entire life was painful. I felt like the only chubby girl in the world. I was always the last one picked for team sports, I never was able to do a cartwheel or hang from the monkey bars like other little girls, gymnastics was totally and forever out of the question.
Looking in the mirror and seeing the reflection of a fat girl. Who was that? That was not me. I have never seen myself as that fat person, and it always surprised me to see that reflection knowing I was so much more than what my physical body looked like. I always felt judged and underestimated because of my physical condition....underestimated and judged by everyone, and maybe myself.
Over the years I had, in addition to Olga Korbut, one more deep lasting physical impression. Rachel McLish, bodybuildings 1980 Ms. Olympia . From one Olympian to another! Talk about the perfect female physique. Remember, this was 1980. Bodybuilding in the 80’s set a standard for lean muscular physiques and it still has lasting effects on diet and training. This is the reason I joined Gold’s Gym, San Jose , and where I would meet my future husband Mark. Fate? Or part of my dreams coming true? Mark was a former Olympic level athlete and the one who would unknowingly help me turn my dream of being and living like an athlete into reality. But who knew it would come almost 20 years later!
It had seemed like forever that I wanted to be able to express some physicality and athleticism throughout my life. As a young adult I dreamt of bodybuilding and things like competing in the Ironman triathalon, and yes, the dream of being Olga Korbut still resonated. But they were still only dreams, it was way too late for me.
Could I do it? Would I do it? Would I ever lose the weight? Would I ever stop stuffing myself full of food? I liked overeating food, and it liked me…until I didn’t, and it didn’t. Change was up to me, and change was possible.
Why not me? Why not you?
I believe in you the same as I believe in me. I support, but I don’t commiserate. I expect the best, the biggest, and the fastest changes. I’m your biggest cheerleader. You can do this...go for the GOLD!