Waiting Out the Day

Another day goes by, did I eat less? Did I eat less than I did the day before?. Did I eat less of the right foods, and the right combination of foods, to see that stinkin' number on the scale go down from the day before? No.

I have to wait out another day. Try not to think about it. Do better than the day before. Why am I not living the life I think I want, the life I say I want. Even when I'm not 'trying' I'm still trying too hard, or not enough, which is it?

I want to throw out all the food in my house. I want to starve.

I know my life is supposed to be more than just waiting out the day.