Good Thing I Believe in Goodness and Miracles

I was really hoping to post some amazing videos of my Kettlebell Sport practice this afternoon. I mean, my snatch sets are fine, kinda good, but my jerk skill has yet to breakthrough.  Really, I have a positive attitude about it.  I never start my training/practice thinking I can't or won't do it.  I always go into the gym completely ready for goodness, and sometimes miracles, to take place....I believe in goodness and miracles, if you don't know that about me by the way.  I also believe in earning things in life, that nothing you hold of value is given to you by accident, without some kind of previous asking and preparations....not sure if I'm expressing that exactly right....  Sure, maybe we think some people are born not having to "worry" about money, looks, or status, and in some cases strength and athletic skill, but that doesn't mean that those people may not have any worries about other things in their lives!  And more power to them if they don't!  I want to be one of those people and in fact I feel more and more confident I am becoming one! 

I believe that anything is possible because if "one person can do it, then it can be done".  I live with this philosophy.

Long story short.  My 16kg jerk sets were an epic fail.  So much so that after my first set (of two) I actually broke down and sobbed uncontrollably on Marks shoulder.  I sobbed for about 2 minutes.  (aren't I lucky to have his shoulder there for me....geez, I'm so lucky)  I could have just wrapped it up, or tried the next set with a lighter bell, but instead I tried to pick myself up by my bootstraps and attempt a second set.  I started out as fresh as I could shake off what just happened but then as much as I wanted to gut through it, my forearm was bruised, and I just could not take the pressure the weight of the bell was creating....I tried really hard to hang on but combined with everything else it was too much.....today. 

I just really do not understand how I can be so weak or so stupid when it comes to this skill.  I was feeling at my lowest point ever.

But that was then (a couple of hours ago), and this is now.  I'll get back in the gym tomorrow and try again.  I will get this done.  It's not impossible, in fact it's very possible.  It's not like it's one thousand pounds for God's sake....well, technically it is.  36lbs x 100 reps = 3600 lbs = almost two tons....good thing I believe in miracles!

photo above was a still image I took from the video of my first set, trying to pull my head out of my "&$$", before a major meltdown that included 2 minutes of actual sobbing.  Aren't I 50 years old?  Way too old to be sobbing over a missed set.  Tomorrow I will try again, and regardless of the outcome I will probably post video.....no sobbing, promise.